alien

[2004, for all those feeling alienated sometimes]

I'm hiding in the echoes of my laughter

invisibly I watch you from behind the skin upon my face

pretend that I'm pretending only

and can't admit that I'm – perhaps – of human race

I have been raised upon another planet

and learned by force how to behave around here

I live amongst you and raise no suspicion

but never managed to adapt and breathe your atmosphere

the body you can see is just an image

I shape and reshape and abuse and I create anew

the me inside is more than I will ever show you

so I can never know if you would like me if you knew

let me participate in your existence

or else reject the person who is really me

and not the shallow costumes I've been wearing

please take a deeper look and see

the future holds no promises for me

I've not decided yet how long I'll stay on earth

sometimes all I want is leaving

but I know that hope dies last for what it's worth

I'm hiding in the echoes of my laughter

invisibly I watch you from behind the skin upon my face

pretend that I'm pretending only

I can't admit that I'm of human race